It doesn't seem true. I feel like I'm in a bubble, or numb. Is this really it? I was 90% certain we would be closing, probably before the end of the year. Then WHAM, the decision is taken out of my hands. I have felt every emotion: extreme grief, terror, sadness, regret and yes, even relief. I don't want the store to be gone. I just don't want to run it anymore.
Everyone has been so fantastic. No one seemed particularly surprised, at least on the staff. I guess it's been pretty obvious for a while that we're struggling.
So what if we raise the money I owe right away? Would I try to change anything? I don't honestly know. Is it too late to go back?
Evan is turning cartwheels. Not real ones, but mental and emotional ones. He is so relieved and happy, it makes me feel guilty that he has been so affected by all this. Not just the time I spent at the store, but the money problems, depression, and stress of the last year. Maybe I can be a more focused and happier Mommy now.
I just need to get through the next week with "class and grace". I actually had someone say that about me (Bek) and it really surprised me. It's what I'd like to be, and maybe on the surface I show this.
Above all, I WILL keep my sense of humor about this. No more staff meetings! Forget publishing the November calendar! No more payroll taxes! Or payroll! And just imaging the cool scrapbook area I will have at home! (now I just have to find a place for it :)
If you've watched "The Hitchhikers's Guide to the Galaxy", I mean REALLY watched it, there is a "really deleted scene" in the extras, where Arthur, Ford and Zaphod burst in, commando style. Let me paraphrase:
"We're Sisters, Scrappin' Sisters. DO PANIC! M***** ****{BLEEP}*****!"
Kinda sums it all up for me.
Friday, October 28, 2005
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Alana,
I am still feeling the sadness of your news last night. I will miss the Friday nights and working the store but most of all I will miss our "family". We have all cultivated relationships through the store. We have been through good times and bad. If I could choose my family it would definitely be the friends I have made at Scrappin Sisters. We have to find a way to stay together to scrap and chat. I wish I would have won the darn lottery, I would have given you the money to keep going and you could have hired someone to do the taxes, payroll and all that yucky stuff. :)
Last night Evan was talking to me while I was closing the store. He said " Candy have you heard the bad news?" I said yes, still trying to keep my composure. He then went on to tell me that it is sad that we won't be here anymore, but we have to look on the bright side. I told him I wasn't sure I could see the bright side just yet, and he said well he was going to get the little tv for his bedroom. I laughed a little. Then he said, it is all going to be okay, he said that it's funny but when sad things happen good things come from it. Well that's when I lost it, he had me in tears.
Sad ones and happy ones too I guess. I have seen the stress it has put on you and your family. So I'm sure you will be happy to get back to a normal life.
As far as class and dignity, you have it hands down. Many of us would have given in a long time ago. But you kept trying and oh so hard. I compliment you on that and thank you for everything you've done. So as one of your employees and one of your dedicated customers I bid you farewell, and good luck in your new endeavors. I will continue to be your customer on line and hopefully we will all stay in touch and scrap together.
Alana
Wishing you the very best in your new venture. Although it was a hike for me, I will miss the occasional visit to your side of town.
Take care
Suzy
You know how I feel about this. I am obviously sad about it, but also relieved for you and your family. I will miss you! Thank you for your friendship and making it easier to make the move to Arizona. My extended family here at the store has been such a stronghold in my life. I will miss you tons!!!
wishing you ALLLLLLLLLLL the best girl!!!
You have definitely handled yourself with class and grace. I will miss the occasional Friday night I had there. But I know you know you've made the right decision. Take care and don't be a stranger!
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